Newsong NOC/Harvest
I went to church today.
I haven’t been in community worshipping with other people in years now (with the exception of summer con). So I freaked the hell out before entering the church… Will I be shunned? Will this lead to drama later on down the road? Not to mention that I didn’t really know anyone there at all, with the exception of one person.
The message:
was about grief and how it’s good to mourn and to let go of those pain and hurt that the world tells you to hide a lot of times. Lots of crying happened during worship as a result of the message. It wasn’t because I was sad or … mourning per say, but I was crying mostly because I realized how much I missed God. I felt the closest to him in my first and second years and I remembered how much He comforted me throughout the tough times, and now it’s as if I lost that dependency on Him because things are going okay. I want to be able to talk to Him like homies again like I used to and I think it was good that I realized that today.
The worship:
Was amazing. Music is so important to me because that’s how I connect with God most easily. And I can say that I am very satisfied. I miss the worship team and maybe one day I could serve as a singer again.
Old friend New friend:
Saw my old friend. I was SO happy about that.. Looks like I belong more than I thought I did. =) Then had lunch with a new friend. I never told him this but I’m super encouraged by how much he’s starting to seek God. Proves to me that God answers prayers.
Another highlight:
Went to Harvest today. Chris Tomlin started singing in Indonesian. For the first time in a while I was able to sincerely pray for my Dad to know God.
We’ll see. I still got lots of things to figure out.
