Maybe
I belong somewhere else.
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Let me explain. Within the next few weeks, two of my good friends are moving to Washington DC. One I expected since a while ago, the other took me by surprise and almost made me cry when I heard about it. My friend from Sacramento has just come to visit and left again. She seems to be doing well and I’m very glad. My friend from work is quitting and pursuing his dream of becoming a psychiatrist. Another friend is now on a visioning trip to Southeast Asia about starting a non-profit there and figuring out strategically how to partner with people to combat human trafficking. Then I hear about people that graduated who are moving on to bigger and greater things.
Don’t get me wrong. I am so grateful for where I am right now. Very comfortable yet challenging place to be in. I’m learning new things every day and meeting new people everyday as well.
But in the back of my head I’m still wondering if this is where I’m supposed to be.. and if there is anything else I could do or pursue that could help me find I guess.. my purpose in life. I read about and actually KNOW people who have built schools in foreign countries, fight for those who are powerless, feed those who are hungry, give safe spaces to those who have never felt so, and I wonder why I am not doing any of these things. Maybe it’s fear of losing myself in these causes, maybe it’s just laziness, or maybe they are just too big and I don’t know where to start.
My friend once told me. Think about where I want to be 5 years from now- what I want to be like.. who I want to be. I’m 22 years old. God, please don’t let me end here.
